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It all started one December night a few decades ago. On this special day somewhere in the middle of Eastern European "jungle" full of polluted air it happened. Awesome little Capricorn came to its existence! Yeahhhh... Alien was born! I was born!

Believe it or not but my mom used to say I was a very nice, obedient baby, who was able to wait at one place for hours - in other words - where they left me, they found me (cute dog, right?) Later on as my physical body was growing of course my personality started developing! As a little girl I used to be very shy, didn't feel comfortable with strangers and when I went to the store with my younger sister, she was that one who talked with the shop assistant! Shame on me, I was lost antisocial weirdo. I would say I had little bit low-self confidence even though at school I wasn't bad student, I just felt anxiety, when it came to dealing with the unknown adults. Let me add one more negative side of little Lucinka, which woke up thanks to my hobby. I used to play piano and such activity needs practise and... patience. My poor mom realized that I wouldn't be so patient as I was furiously beating piano like insane, when I made mistake. So, to sum up my childhood ... I was very nice girl, willing to help my classmates, popular thanks to my jokes and had no enemies...
Anyway, things got changed, when I started attending high school and maybe puberty sort of changed me too. I became cheeky, rude, irresponsible and I wonder...how come my parents didn't kill me! I turned to rebel, who was against everything and everybody. Despite all this nice part of me was still surviving even though it was little bit hidden under big layer of showing off attitude. Luckily later on ...in some years it went outside but not that easily.

However, let's move on and let me start analyzing myself (btw why the hell I chose this topic :D) Firstly ,I will mention some disgusting negatives and finish it all with my awesome positives because that is how people do it and like I know from psychological view it may give good impression, right? Well.. to be honest, one of my problems is that I am too sincere with sharp tongue hidden in my cute mouth. I simply say, what is on my mind without considering other factors, which time to time cause me problems and believe me that once I am furious ...it is really hard to stop me! Another thing that gets on my nerves is my perfectionism. It sounds weird, I know because trying to be pefect may be something related to successful life but just imagine that it can bother you as you still proofread everything million times, want to be simply good at any cost, which is also related to competitivity. Grrrr, yeah I have to admit I am competetive and hard to say, if it is good or bad side of me, everything has two sides, right? Luciii… don't be stupid, better show them some positives.. ok? Ehm… Ok, Ok, guys.. here I am with something, what you might find surprising, nice or even cute! Sooo.. I may give impression of somebody strict, tough and emotionless but that's just my protective shell and if once you get underneath my skin, you will find somebody totally different there. I can be nice and carrying friend but I have too high expectations and demands, so it isn't easy to be my friend. I have specific sense of humour, which is highly appreciated at my work, by my friends - even though some people might struggle with understanding my "high level" sarcastic jokes :D The thing is that I might feel too much - to be funny and laugh like insane but when I am destroyed it is just everything got broken in million pieces inside of me. One extreme followed by another. Besides, I would say that I wouldn't let anybody down because my empathy isn't low and at times I feel like Michael Jackson singing: Heal the world :D and believe I can help everybody. What I love is to surprise people and see their reactions.. so to me it is the most important gift to see sincere happiness in someone's eyes. One more important thing about me - you won't impress me with luxurious expensive things as I am somebody who is into the experiences, memories that stay forever locked in my mind. Materialistic things are to me valueless. Like some of you know, I like being creative because it makes my life more colorful and interesting, so you will hardly find me bored sitting somewhere in the corner. However, when I get an idea, inspiration I turn to somebody blind, deaf, I ignore everything till I am done with my work, I am able to sacrify everything for what I am doing and for what draws my attention

In fact I have no idea, what EC people think about me or how they percieve me and if I should invest my time in thinking about who hates me, who likes me...guess I would sooner or later end up in the madhouse. There doesn't exist in this world a person that would be loved by all and that's how I take it... I am who I am and either you like it or not :-)