It was raining that morning, I might have hugged my pillow all day because of its coldness. Then my phone rang, my little sister’s name appeared on the screen, in fact, it was mum. She might have been annoyed due to my ignorance, for the heaven’s sake that was 5 am! what kind of call at this hour? Two missed calls, mum might have known I wont picked it up so she sent me a message instead of another call.
“Your auntie has died few minutes ago”
I could have schoked, I might have cried, or at least felt a bit sad. Otherwise, I did none of these. I just dialed my mum’s number, regreted why didn’t pick up earlier calls and prepared to apologize, again I didn’t do as I have planed, once her voice broke up my silence, she was talking and crying at same time, left me a little space just to say I would be at my auntie’s house soon.
My auntie was a half of my mother and my grandma, a perfect combination of those two, possesed their goodness and never shown me her bad side, she loved me like they did. The air might have been filled with condolence as everyone let out their tears as its effect, a sign that she was loved by many people. Too bad that mournful gas didn’t affect me at all, I might have immuned been immune because the reason that could have be understood only by me. When I was child, I made a covenant with God to not cry over someone’s death, even for my beloved ones. God keeps His promise, for exchange, He might have put this emptiness on my heart, left me numb.
God have stopped the time only for me. I could have be seated in front of my desk, let the time passed by doing my routine works at office, but I was standing and watching how people taking care of her dead body and felt like trapped there forever. I could have opened my phone to surf on internet like I used to when I have nothing to do, but my mind was occupied by something else, I called it nothingness.
At last I was sitting beside her grave longer than anyone else. If people could read my mind, they might have found me thinking out loud, will I be loved as much as my auntie loved me after she departed?
Comments
@Expector, I did change it the way you advised, thanks for your help on correcting my blog.
@Onee, yes onee, a lesson was learned that day
@Icha, Ameeen, Thanks for your du'a
@Shoba Thank you very much for your kind words, take care of your aunt, dear :)
@Eva, sadly yes this is. thanks for stopped by and left your sweet comment like usual
@Noona, Thanks a lot for your comment and consideration :)
@Setareh, there is a saying if someone who cant cry is actually a weak person, i don't think this suit me, but i do agree with your words even tough everyone has their own way to deal with sadness, hehe... thanks for your comment
Dear Peppo, what a wonderful writing! I think crying is a kind of mechanism which help our soul to cope with such hard incidents. When there is not much we can do, just be an observer while tears pouring down our face carrying out our sadness and helping us to tolerate the great sadness. May her soul rests in peace.
I am sorry to hear about your aunt, dear Peppo.
I like your words "My aunt was half of my mother and my grandma". A perfect way to describe aunts! My aunt is also like that.
Thanks for sharing and all the best.
Oh Peppo so sorry to hear that..May Allah bless her :)
Oh ya I forgot to say, thanks for sharing your story here.
Well done! Thanks for sharing. Have a perfect day! ;)
Hi Peppo,
You could have corrected it as this: 'I might have been immune to it because of the reason that could be understood only by me.'
Keep it up!
Thanks Expector for gave my blog a visit and corrections as well, I'll fix it soon.
Thank you, Icha :) that's soo sweet of you,.
anyway that's based on real story, the reason of my break session.
Good try!
Sorry for your loss - if it's a real story!
Re corrections: There are a few sentences which need to be corrected or improved.
1. “Your auntie has died few minutes ago” - It's a common mistake. You could have used the past tense instead of the present perfect. For example, you can say 'I arrived a few days ago.'
2. 'I might have immuned because the reason that could have understood by only me. ' - You can say 'be immune to something'. 'Immune' isn't a verb. You can say 'be understood by me'.
3. 'I could have been sat in front of my desk,' - You can say 'be seated or sit at my desk'.
Hope you get it!
Hi Peppo,
The writing challenge was answered by you. It was the good story but sad ending :'(. I thought it was not fact, right?
Finally, you show up on EC after break session :D. Welcome back then.