ESL Blogs

     Hi sweetheart, what are you doing now? Oh, you’re sleeping. OK, sleep more. I know, this time is very important for your growing. You need rest all day and night. Just sometimes…I wonder….are you bored? Because like me…hahaha….I cannot stay alone for only one day. You…9 months and 10 days…ohhh..How much boring day that you have…

     You come with me suddenly. I mean : because of my health and the doctor said: “You had no chance”. So I stopped my expectance. And I didn’t need to take care of my health. One day, when I cooked a dinner. Lol…it made me vomiting. I didn’t think about you, I just thought that my level of cooking was back out . After that, I remembered something …oh my god, what a miracle! I really screamed. Dad couldn’t say anything, just hold my hands very tight. You are a big gift that God gave us.

     One day later, I come to the hospital. They checked very carefully. And they told me : “You cannot keep it. It will be dangerous”. Hearing that News, I was nearly unconscious. “Why??? Why you come and go easily? You don’t think about my hurt, huh?” But I know, it was not your fault. It was my fault. I should not have you at my age. Too old.

     I told them to give me some days. I will try my best, they agreed. You and I spent one week together in hospital. I drunk so many medicines (but don’t worry baby, all for my health. It needs better). A day when a doctor said : “You’re safe”. We had a small party. Dad and your sister/brother ate meal like they must be in hungry one week.. hahaha…so cool!

      2 months, 3 months…omg…you mistreat me. I couldn’t eat anything. Even when I drunk water and it almost went out. All day, I must stay on my bed. No work, no eat, no move….I just slept and slept. But when you reached 4 months, maybe you could hear me so you stopped your actions. Hihihi.. You made me always in a hungry. Today, you (lol..you, not me) wanted to eat this meal, tomorrow…that meal. And this time….all day, I was just thinking about : eat

     5 months, the doctor said : “you’re a girl”. But you were very tiny (only 287grams). Omg…seeing your photo and I could not find where your face is? hahaha…..

     6 months, I got 4 kilograms for this month. (hic..hic..where is my perfect body? Kekeke)  My belly was double before (and your weight got more double :701grams) . You started moving in it. But maybe, your hands (or your legs) were still small. So I was OK. I just felt a bit trouble with my back. It was hurt. I couldn’t lay on my back….only right side or left side.

     7 months (28 weeks). You grown up so fast. I could see my belly was big…big..…bigger day by day. You move..move and didn’t care it was a night or day. And if you heard your bother’s voice then you used your hands to kicked my womb. It was hurt. You always made me to lose my sleep (because you really like to play from 11 PM to 2 AM…hhhhh…) I know, having you is a wonderful thing but I hated myself. I even dare not to see myself in mirror. I refused all meeting. You know that I’m short  :)  and now….i must wear “a large dress” , no high-heels, no make-up ..hhhh….I think, I like a “frog” .

     32 weeks…I was too “heavy” , I couldn’t move fast. When I walk… Dad laughed so much. But when he saw me sad with his teasing. He told me : “honey, pregnancy is wonderful. You’re still pretty, don’t worry”. I know, he told a lie…but I was still happy…hahaha…..

     Today is the 35th week of yours. I feel tired. I think you will come soon. Hope you will be cute and beautiful like me…lol…ya, this time is my happy time, I wanna share my happiness with all of my friends here. And I will introduce you with my EC’s friend. So hurry up, come in safety, Understand?

     Love you more than I can say…..

     Your mom.

P/s : to all EC’s friend: Please don't laugh at my mistakes, long time, I didn't use my English.