Half of this piece was written during the earlier part of 2012. When I received the news that my father was dying, I decided to finish it before his passing. He left this planet on October 22 2012. This one is dedicated to him. The writing was very hard for me to even think of posting here. But, it's time for me to move on from the grief and begin living again. My next blog that's posted will be much more humorous.
What The Hell Was I Thinking?
Many years ago, I was out for a wild night on the town of male misbehavior. At the time, a normal day for me would epitomize an average man's eternity in hell. During this tirade, an all too familiar dark cloud manifested it'self above me. From that cloud, and angel fell to my feet. She had one perfectly white and flawless wing. The other appeared to be broken.
As she finally managed to complete her very difficult landing, the first words that came from my very arrogant lips where, "Are you sure you've been delivered to the right location? Sharks regularly patrol these very dangerous waters and true angles have never been seen in these parts.".
To my surprise, she looked up to me and said, "Hey moron, you and the sharks don't scare me. Stop questioning your own destiny! If I had a choice, gravity would have never brought me here and you can kiss my lily white angelic ass!".
Okay, the usual "two cent pick up lines" weren't working. Talking to a fallen angel wasn't a daily practice in this man's life. With all of my very "limited wisdom", and complete lack of common sense, I decided to walk away and count my losses for the evening.
While staggering off in sad disappointment, the obnoxious little angle grabbed my shoulder and looked at me with the brightest smile I'd ever seen.
What she said made a very lasting impression.
"Hey moron, don't give up. You have a long life to live. Your own stupidity is temporary, yet my love for you is eternal. When times become difficult. I'll carry you through the worst of it.".
Many years of my life passed while following an average course. The pains of raising my own family, weddings, funerals, career choices, etc. etc.
Whenever times became difficult, I'd catch a glimpse of my little passive aggressive guardian. As promised, she never abandoned me.
After a long, earthly existence, my final day arrived. For a man with many flaws and a jaded past, I felt fortunate to have so many loved ones witness a dying man's final breath.
Upon awaking to a strange and new realm of existence, something told me I wasn't alone. The same familiar grip that'd clutched my shoulder so long ago was now holding my right hand. Her beauty hadn't changed since the night we first met.
In front of us stood two pearly white gates that were carefully guarded by Saint Peter.
All that she said was, "It's time for you to meet your Father. Please allow me the honor of formal introductions.".
Being a man of earthly pride, my response to her was, "It's okay dear. I have this one covered.".
I let her right hand go and started running towards my final destiny. Before I could complete my first sprinting step, the angel screamed out, "Hey moron!!!, lawyers aren't allowed in Heaven and you'll need my guidance!".
These words stopped me dead in my tracks. For the first time, I could finally comprehend the true meaning of what my faithful and lifelong companion was trying to say.
While humbly turning back to rejoin hands with my faithful "broken winged" companion, a tear appeared upon her cheek. When I asked what made her so sad, she looked me in the eye and said, "You silly boy, I've seen so many souls just like you run and crash into the fires of hell. Please take a chance with me and walk carefully through the gates of eternity.".
To my atheist and agnostic English Club friends, enjoy the humor of the story and smile. To my more religious friends, Muslim, Christian, Jewish, Buddhist, or whatever brand of spirituality you practice in your country, I hope you enjoyed the sentiment. If your true believers you'll understand.
It was just time to finally share that writing. It's composure and editing nearly killed me.
Finally, I give thanks to English Club for allowing me the ability to share this story to my dear friends across the globe.
Take care all.
Comments
You know to which group i belong to eri, don't you? Nevertheless I want to say something. First of all thanks for teh smile you put on my face secondly I'm glad you overcome your grief and if you needed an angel to do it ... welcome be the angel then. We look for strength in different places and ways and it's always a great thing when we find it. Keep on your path and don't let your renewed stregth leave you :-* P.S. in case it will leave don't worry you're strong enough to find it again .
Thank's noaslpls, I appreciate the sentiment. You're great my friend.
Dear Eric,
Don't take this as a preach or something because as usual I am commenting too long. :D This is just my thoughts on your writing.
I am not a religious person, but I do believed in a Higher Being. In my case Allah. And I believed in the time of needs and despairs, we just need to ask His guidance even though we thought we do not need it. And I believed He will never abandon us no matter what.
But it cannot be said the same for ourselves. The saddest part is when we, ourselves that abandoned and quit on us. In the time of sadness and despair we often felt so alone and nothing seemed right anymore and we took the easiest decision to quit on ourselves.
But I always believed that when one door is closed, another one will open. You just need to be patient and believed. And I know, it is easier said than done, but life is never easy right? If we have a smooth ride our whole life, our experience will not be interesting and nothing to reminiscence about in our old age, or in this case, nothing to write about in the blogs.
We are what we made ourselves to be. The ride is just an adventure, the bad, the ugly and the beauty are just pieces of the whole puzzles.
Once again thanks for sharing your hardest story to tell. Appreciate it.
I understand what you write. Those are feling of someone who feel desperate of God's trial, and you almost come to the darkness, your joke is a good way to overcome your desperate feeling and you realize later that everything in this worldly is only temptation from shaitan, You are save now my friend and you back to the truth. Keep your faith to be strong. Congratulation.
i think you have wide imagination