It's always this hard to start write something from inside my mind. I watch movies too much and listen songs I don't like at all, everyday. what could make me cooler than a hero with a strong heart and a bunch of lucky? Nothing. I am special in my own way, less and more. when I tell people about my case, it doesn't mean I am weak, I don't want to make some people worry too, or let some people laugh at my pain, believe me, it's not my style to grieve in social network so all the people will know and look at me with pity. To be honest I always prefer feeling of pity rather than love, why? because sometimes love is hurt while pity always get ignored. For example, when you love someone, there are many possibilities for you to hurt both of yourself and your soul mate, you would have chance to hurt people around you both. you will be playing a great drama. Now, look at the pity, someone please have a mercy on me, help (or ignore) me, thing finished and good bye.Talking about life, it's always treat me well. Everything is perfect as I don't have anything to complain for. There are some points where I appeared not good, I appreciate for those who cares about me and always have time to ask whether I need something from they or not, I will always let you to know what I need and want, but if I just smile and say nothing, please don't force me to reveal thing which I don't have it, I count it as ask me to commit suicide in front of you. And here I am, telling you that I have passed my limit, tried to help myself to express my feeling. There are a lot of pictures, quotes, poems and everything which is can help me express myself, but what can be more express yourself except your own words. I like to keep thing simple because everything looks more complicated than its original form.when something happens, the first time I think is, why now? when everything is perfect. well, who can't refuse a calamity, it could come anytime they want, and what can I say is nobody ready for that, even the most well prepared person. it gave me feel something is lost and I don't know what it is. Empty, sad, regret, fear, scare, I got myself filled by that. Often I told myself everything will be ok, no need to be worry, just calm down, cool, you can handle this. Then I keep inside the bad things, I took all the blame because none deserve to receive my anger. This is my mistake, my problem, my pain, my burden. Soon this burden seems affecting me more than I can ever imagine. another mistake, I did stupid things with no reason. just when I tried to keep thing stable, I found it worse than the former, and when I think it can't be worse anymore, I got another stab, more and more. There is even no chance to raise my hands and say "I give up!". they keep beating me. is that my mistake if I look back and mad? I make up things, make un relate things relate, blame people, grieve, scream. Does it all solve my problems? It's a negative, I can see they are surrounded me and laughing. you don't hit anything buddy, let us bring you down into your lowest point.Note : Please don't take it seriously, I found this while deleting spams on my email box. It was sent a year ago and I have no idea why my friend didn't reply and why the subject is 'sunset' lol xD
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Thanks for visiting my blog, gave it like and left a nice comment.
To be honest it's full of terrible grammars, lol xD
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Hi batuhan!
First, thanks for reading that, I was afraid people would find it boring, hehehe...
Second,Sure I did make a lot of mistakes, although I checked it, I'll fix it later when I get my lappy back,. It's a bit hard to edit post through mobile.
Again thank you so very much for your corrections. Let's wait maybe others would like to point out my mistakes, include the part you are not sure -I am also not sure, hehe...-
Sangat bagus. siakhan, kamu tidak pikir saya mau koreski untuk blog mu. melihat, (I watch movies too much and listen songs) I watch moveis too much and listen to songs. good bye = goodbye. We need love more than pity. Thanks peppo for sharing.
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Thanks for visiting my blog, gave it like and left a nice comment.
To be honest it's full of terrible grammars, lol xD
Have a good day!
As usual you explained it nicely. Thanks for read and comment
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Have a great day
First, thanks for reading that, I was afraid people would find it boring, hehehe...
Second,Sure I did make a lot of mistakes, although I checked it, I'll fix it later when I get my lappy back,. It's a bit hard to edit post through mobile.
Again thank you so very much for your corrections. Let's wait maybe others would like to point out my mistakes, include the part you are not sure -I am also not sure, hehe...-
Sangat bagus. siakhan, kamu tidak pikir saya mau koreski untuk blog mu. melihat, (I watch movies too much and listen songs) I watch moveis too much and listen to songs. good bye = goodbye. We need love more than pity. Thanks peppo for sharing.