This is supposed to be my travel blog. A few weeks back, I went to the Northern parts of Malaysia. I was writing about it for a while now. Then, a few tragic moments happened. The lost of innocent lives in Gaza and the downing of MH17. I lost interest in writing. Everything seems to be trivial and yet every trivial things seems to magnify.
It's like all the things I should have done differently. I should lived to the fullest all day long. I should try avoiding the self escapism and self pity. I should fill my days with happiness and love. It seems I should not wasted any minutes, days because I never knew what things to come.
Am I depressed? I may sound like a depressed person, but I am not. There are so many wonderful things that I know ahead of me. It's just that, I am dragging my feet nowadays. I prefer to stop and just stare at nothingness, sometimes marvel at small things. Like I said, it's like every trivial things has magnify itself. It's hard for me to frame the elusive and jumbling thoughts into words.
I need something or someone to knock my head and kick my melancholy mood or the very least kick my big behind. Thank God it was Eid a few days ago. I went back to my hometown and celebrated it with my family. Being surrounded by family members after not being with them for quite some times was really refreshing. We seldom meet with each others because we are living in different parts of the country.
Just to be able to catch up with each other and preparing dishes for Eid seemed to chases away my melancholy mood. The fresh air surrounding my village also seemed to energize my tired mind. Or maybe all those delicious Eid food triggered my sleep-overdosed brain and woke it up, just a little bit.
Whatever the reasons, I am glad that I am able to feel alive and refresh.
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AH_TK, what's so weird about that? Don't a headless boy eats cookies too? :-P
Oh, Ma'am cat ...
Have you celebrated The Eid ??!!!
Did our cat eat Eid's cookies ?
Cat eats cookies !!!! that is weird :p
Thank you Rim. I really appreciate it.
As usual, it is superb...Noa!
Thank you Mr. Bob. Happy holiday to you too. Yeah. To be with my family, and maybe for a while to forget the real world really refresh the mind and body.
Those people on the plane did nothing that they should have died for and the same is true of the great majority of those who die in Gaza. I can compare it to the innocent people working in the twin towers in New York City, and the sick depressed feeling I had after those thousands of people died a senseless death.
I am happy that the feasts of Eid and seeing your family are refreshing your spirits and helping you to continue living your own life. Eid Mubarak!
AReality, thank you for reading. I really appreciate it.
Expector Smith, yeah. I call it being alive. One day you're happy and the next day you just want to tear your hair out. That's life. :) Anyway, I am glad I am alive and happy.
Vieettt ... sometimes you just can't help from being affected by it all. I know it's beyond my 'control' but sometimes those things really hit me smack on my head. I am glad it's not that long. Maybe it's just a phase where I need to reassess my priority.
Luzzi, when you were as ancient as me, I guess you also would experience various emotions and moods' swings. I am glad I am at the moment the melancholy is at the blue yonder.
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