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Dear friend,

I'm writing this because I think you listen and understand and we have a same tact in music and movies; and please do me a favor; I don't want you to judge about me based on my past 'cause I think I'm not sensitive, shy, taciturn and sad as much as I used to be... and I promise I won't be judgmental too; not even about you but also about everybody else...

I just can't figure out that how all these happened together... I'm talking about 3 years ago when I was mentally normal(after being mentally bad(!) for six months)... . Why exactly after my exam which I couldn't pass it_ my parents started to fight with each other or something like that? Why I felt that I am somehow alone and need to be with someone? Why my best friend broke with his girl and told me:" You can rarely trust in them... rarely..." although the ringtone of his cellphone was "And I love her..." which made me to know more about "The Beatles" and like them?

Although I'm really interested in writing, music and cinema, I don't know why I obeyed my aunt and chose biology to study, which I like it but... I prefer my interests! Now I can understand why specialist say: "Fallow your interests." After a while you really miss them.

You know, I care about God, my country and my family... and at that time my family was in danger... I didn't know how to help my parents. They hurt each other hard so I was trying to find a way to help them but... it was so hard. Day by day they were getting worse to each other and I was getting bad again... when my only friend _who was obviously my best friend!!!_ went to Turkey to leave there, I really could feel the depression again...

But this time I tried to prevent so I tried to find a way to empty my mind and stop this depression. So I decided to exercise; I decided to run while I'm listening to some techno songs... maybe it's helpful... who knows that? So I prepared a collection of some high voltage(!) and energetic songs, bought a pair of sport shoes and yeah! Next day I went out to do it for the first time and then... I saw her for the first time... yes... for the first time I saw her...

I'll write to you again as soon as possible...

Love always,

Behrad