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Someone sent me private message asking how many hours to go? It's 2:30 pm of 31st of December. It is now another years to go. I am getting older & 2016 will come. I answer a talkative chatters well it's 10 hours or less before New year's eve. Around 9 hours and 30 minutes. Yes we're all busy cleaning up & sorting some food to eat with my family. We were four and small family. My mother, father, younger brother & me.

My mother said do you belong on what year? I said I am from the year of the tiger , yes I was born 1986 friday of 18 around 4am in the morning. My mother is saying something at this moment while I am writing. You know that this coming year is the year of monkey. And your year is against this year with regards on health matters. Well, I said it's been almost 4 years I move on from past, and healing happens as you learn to forgive yourself, and you look forward against post traumatic experiences. Well I am putting some coins at the windows, and in my bed. I'll be praying before 12midnight plus chanting my rituals. I am not excited of new year's eve, some reservations was gone but many offers coming on my mobile phone. I am still lame if I am sitting in here. I don't care of planning now.

So let it be, because the more I plan the more never happens. I am counting on more on the blessings I received, not by money but by people who accepted me. The people who stays beside me when I needed them most, when the time , I don't have money, but never uses my incapacity to abuse me.