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7 yrs

Posted by bullseye on June 11, 2011
can u hear me, girl.....its been 7 yrs, it lasted as long as it was, that im still thinking of you sometimes...dont know what u mean to me....im sure you're something for me...you may not know it though.....tell u what.....my 2nd one didn't work out...my next one isnt coming yet....so you, as the first one, still live in my mind.... hope ur doing well...you're my drive....like servo drive....catch up soon, yip...XX
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she's one of the world's best at timekeeping....

Posted by bullseye on December 23, 2010

bought a small plastic alarm clock today...its a quite simple one with only bare basics...thats why i liked it when i saw her in the case.....its small enough to be chucked into suitcases, big enough to be seated in the room... hope it'll last me for several yrs and remind me to learn english...and i'll never be late!

 

she's white..she's small, she's cheap....and she works....who doesnt like her.....

 

 

 

 

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Nirvana

Posted by bullseye on December 14, 2010
The other day I sat in a mediator's stance just like what Steve Jobs did. You see, I need a spiritual icon that leads my road. I dont even know if i was about to reach Nirvana...the only thing in the smog i can see is the shimmering light miles away....thats where nirvana is....I trudge forward wearing nothing...like what steve jobs said ---you're already naked.....with all my gears....the gears could refer to as the knowledge, experiences, and wishes i've got in the past decades..i wont say how long it was, lets just say im no more young.....feel like im not in the modern world..because there are no freeways, surface streets or whatsoever, not even one path im able to follow to get to where the light is shining....feel like im a lone soldier who went AWOL and had to find his own way in the dark even if its in the daytime...feel like im camping in the forked road...compass is of no use...its not about what direction i need to walk in...or getting around the bushes...its all about making the proper decisions at the right time....also feel like i have to be holed up in the pines..the helicopter flashing its lights to spot me all the time...i would climb up with a rope and be picked up...but i realised i was scared to go back to the past....and there's something i have to straighten out...the light down the line sometimes is dimming...suddenly flashing....the clock is still ticking....all of these reminds me of the Nirvana...its the place where i'll be set free.......im impressed with the three movies about how to reach their nirvana...not literally..not sure if they're loyal to the buddha....i was inspired by the pain...that andy, the lead in Shawnshanks Redemption went through...the untouchable shimmering light lit up his immense amount of patience in the process of escaping from the prison...it took him 20 yrs and then made him crawl through a river of shit thats as long as 600 feet to reach nirvana...i was amused to see the other lead, Forell in As Far As My Feet Will Carry Me crossing the Iranian border and the soviet commander who chased him all the way let him go....the third moive im talking about is Cast Away...the caption under the title is: at the edge of the world, the journey begins...and the story stays true to it....Both Tom Hanks(Cast Away) and Forell (As Far As My Feet Will Carry Me) set themselves free with right amount of willpower and motivation...i find they're somewhat different..Forell's known his destination from the very beginning.....with luck and help, all it takes are huge persistence and physical pain.....Tom suffers more...that is, mental pain..the pain in the brain....he is in the middle of nowhere without paths...all he can do is to be prepared and to wait.....and he's still at a crossroads at the end...the finale of Cast Away leaves me hanging...and thinking back of my forked road....i meant to put down my thoughts of Nirvana...all the other thoughts that popped into my mind made me fall into the human condition....still on my way to reaching nirvana....
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