To my one and only love,

     I miss the days you held me and the days I hear your voice. I miss the days you were there. Us falling apart wasn't my choice. I miss the days you kissed me and the feelings we used to show. But most of all I miss the guy that I thought I used to know.

              The worst way to miss you is when you are right beside me and yet i know i can never have you again.I was so used to you calling me because every night we used to speak and now I still wait by the phone until I fall asleep.I'm tired of feeling this way. I know it would be right for me to let go but no matter how much I tell myself to do it, I cant.I miss you when I laugh and cry because I know you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.I miss the way you hold my hand. I miss the way you looked into my eyes. I miss the way you felt for me.

               I tell myself that its better to never see you again, but no matter how much I try to forget, it always makes me remember all the good times we had, and even the bad, and how much I regret the things Ive done, all the things Ive said.I miss you all the time but I miss you the most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other, for those were some of the best and memorable times of my life.

               I tried to tell myself that you're gone but it just wont sink in. no matter what I do, I'm still missing and thinking about you.I might not get to see you as often as I'd like, I may not get to hold you in my arms at night, but deep in my heart I know that it's true. No matter what happens... I will always love you.

                  No matter how far you are, I hope one day you read this letter of broken heart and understand why it was necessary to sacrifice my world and let you go.

                                                                                                                                          With lots of Love,

                                                                                                                       Ella <3

 It’s my life; today, tomorrow and forever. Every inch of it represents me. You’ll know me if you have read every piece of it.

            I have spent my life wandering so many things and these helped me to know what things are worth living. Memories may pass, just like us, people may come and go. But there are so many ways to preserve these priceless moments of time.

            I grew up exploring and experience taught me to value the things I love. With these things I was inspired to keep every wonderful experiences I had by sharing.  Exploiting what I have in mind gives me the urge to learn more and writing is my way of expressing it. I write in any ways I want; and pen and paper is my weapon. My heart is in every piece that I make because the best way to see and appreciate the beauty of life is looking through the heart. Search one’s heart and you’ll find their most cherished things.

            People are afraid of time running so fast but they did nothing but spend this precious time God has given us to worthless things. There are many that spend time with things that worth for a while but already forgotten by tomorrow. Some wastes it with wrathful deeds and only get being hated by many; not realizing that they have lost almost half of their lives.

  I’m living today with blinded eyes keeping hope, faith and love as my guide when I walk in the different paths of life and that search for happiness is what I always want. I note everything that makes me happy and my goal is to share this happiness to other people. You may not know me but I try reaching out hoping that in some way I could take part on your lives maybe not physically but emotionally through my works. I do not consider myself as an effective writer for I write things which only I believe in but I consider that we’re looking under the same sky so we have connection somehow. I always believe that you could make friends through writing and I have proven it myself because I recognize paper and pen to be my best buddies and that is because “Paper is more patient than man.”

Now, every one of us is running after time but I have nothing to worry about. Things may change, my works could be one of this world’s greatest artifacts and I will pass this world just for once but I know, people will remember me; though not personally, but they’ll remember that there once someone that made a bit of their lives truly worthwhile and that I have stayed devoted to my passion until the nick of time.

You cannot give what you do not have.                                   

            You’ve loved and then you’re hurt. Now you’re fighting for your life on the hospital. Did it ever come into your mind what will happen next after you committed suicide? After life is not the end, because there’s more longer life after death; and it’s up to you on which path you would take.

            You have given everything you have but it’s still not enough. Your relationship ended like that in just a snap. You asked yourself with so many questions; what did you do or what did you didn’t do to make him stay. But the thing that you must ask is did you love yourself as you have loved him? Or you have love yourself less? It’s confusing especially when what you’re doing is making you happy. But happiness with something that makes you empty is not the kind of happiness that would last a lifetime instead it will only make you feel worthless as time goes by.

            It is true that you must love unconditionally but it also has its own limitations. I believe that love do not rejoices in wrong doings that is why all things that is made filthy within a relationship is not made out of love instead out of the obscenity of the world. Love brings joy not only on the emotional aspect but also spiritually. If you learn to love truly, you will learn to love God even more because when you’re in love, every day is a miracle. Staying in love in everything that God has given you is an invaluable gift.

            Do not dwell into things that would only make you forget God’s purpose of giving us the opportunity to feel love; for us to be thankful and recognize Him as our powerful and ever loving God. When you’re hurt, you can cry out to God. Seek for Him every time you feel so down; He is always willing to listen. Talk to people you’re comf’table with; they love you as who you are. Ending your own life is not the answer to all the miseries you are feeling right now but the start of you’re suffering after life in this world. Be thankful that you felt broken heartedness because it is God’s way of telling you that He saved you from a wrong person.

            Live, laugh and love. Be thankful for everything you have. Learn the lesson from every pitfall and appreciate all the hurt for making you even stronger and closer to God.