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Hang in,there

Posted by Icarus on May 15, 2011
Today's all burnt toast
Running late,and dad jokes
Has anybody seen my left shoe
I close my eyes,take a bite
Grab a ride ,laugh out loud
There it is up on the roof
I've been there,I've survived
So just take my advice
Hang in there,baby
Things are crazy
But I know your future is bright
Hang in there,baby
There is no maybe
Everything turns out all right
Sure life is up and down
But trust me,it comes back all around
You're gonna love who you turn out to be
Hang in there,baby
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Long lost family

Posted by Icarus on May 1, 2011
well...I found a brilliant article just now,and share with you guys.Who are we? Where do we come from? Does it matter? Does knowing or not knowing define us? I climbed into bed rather early last night after a marathon working week ready to read or watch some TV and relax. I turned on the TV to the reunion of two women....twins who had been separated for 66 years. It was very moving watching them hugging and saying almost immediately that they were now complete, that the feeling that someone had been missing from their lives had now evaporated.The next reunion, however, which flew off the screen at me from what felt like nowhere, was a daughter and her father. I wasn't clear on the story behind this reunion as I was gearing myself up for my emotional reaction, debating whether or not to press the off button, rather than listening to the background information. I think that she had never known her father and certainly had no knowledge of his lovely large family, his desperate need to meet her and that he lived in Canada. Their reunion brought for her that feeling of what it is to be held by a father, by what it is for him to look into her eyes and say 'she's mine'.I am very open about who I am and where I come from....some may say to open. But I have only been like this for about 18 months or so when I realised that speaking out publicly of all the different life experiences I'd had, were useful to other people in a helpful way. I'd always kept my distress for the therapy room and close friends....probably the best place for it until I had 'dealt' with it! My status update regarding my response to the programme, as a daughter who has never met her father, was duly pasted and my Facebook stream brought all of it's wonderment by way of the usual support, shock, opening up of other people's stories and opportunities to learn.So what happens when it goes wrong? I was conceived in 1969 in a Wigan Motel I believe and that is all I know. That is it. I know that there was a lot of shame about the pregnancy and I know that I was fostered for a couple of weeks after I was born. The rest is buried deeply into the passages of time, never to be truly remembered or known or wanted to be known. Except I want to know. I have always wanted to know. There is not going to be a reunion. I have just about come to terms with this.Out of last night's discussions, the stories' of others, the media hyped video footage designed to bring out out as much emotion as possible regardless of the audience's ability to deal with it, I concluded that it is important to know where we come from however painful. It is our right actually. It is not the right of someone else to determine whether I should know of my heritage. Not knowing or knowing who we are, is indeed one of the things that define us whether in a way that we can use to destroy ourselves or in a way that we use to live as healthy emotionally stable human beings who live consciously in society. It defines how much 'stuff' we are left to deal with. It defines how the adults around us, ie. parents/family subsequently deal with it or don't deal with it!However defining it is, though, it is not who we are. It is not necessarily who we are designed to be whether it is from a positive start in life or a negative one. I crawled into an AA room at the age of twenty (and I haven't had a drink since) an angry, destructive, hurt, lonely, young girl with grey and sallow skin. Yet the gratitude that I have for that experience is far greater than any value I can come up with. Because it was then that I began the process of rebuilding the mess along with the help of other recovering alcoholics, professional help, endless self help books and sheer bloody determination. That is who I am. Determined, strong, intent of enjoying and relishing every last drop of life that is on offer to me. I am a mother, teaching my children the joy of feeling unconditional love, of feeling acceptance, knowing that I am here for them whatever they do, whatever their mistakes, whatever their choices. That is who I am.
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Do you love kids?

Posted by Icarus on April 26, 2011

      Haw-haw,the kids on the pictures are not mine....

      well..I am just a college student,I am just a mother,haha~but I know dear ika is a great mother.so I like to talk about it!I like kids.if there is  a several mouths kid,he is too fragile to hold.but he is look like a angel,so naive and pure! and then when he become a several years old child,he is so lovely,sometimes he will be a lovely evil,ask some weird question you can not answer.sometimes he is so naughty that drives you crazy.but mostly,his clever and sweet  make you so comfort and happy.haha~

       I know some people do not like children,just like my classmates,they always said,oh!kids are always cry cry cry...and naughty enough!it makes me upset!and in China,feudal thought still exist,some parents is prefer boys to girls.What do you think? you guys' views from the different countries....

 

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Show some pictures!

Posted by Icarus on April 19, 2011

  Well,cause one blog called "  Do you have heart to change these?" wrote by ika aryani.She is tree's lover,haha!yeah! she love the tree,even the beautiful scenery so much.when I told her I lived in a small village which is arounded by green mountain.She is so excited about it! And  I promised her to upload some pictures for her.of course! sharing with your guys!    Look! The first picture,do you find out something special? yeah! Part of mountain is bald.there is going to be built a expressway.And the last picture,I used to swim in the river and play with my partners at my young ages.but now it is worse than before.it is the change,right? but I really want to keep it!

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Burnt

Posted by Icarus on April 18, 2011

 Okay....Today I got up late,and then cook some food for Brunch.oh!some potato were left last night.well,everything was ready,I put them in the pot and added some water,soft fire was great.Come on!my computer was waiting for me,you can imagine how crazy I was.five minutes later,a burning smell hit me!I can not come over,where was it from? so bad!
   Suddenly,something came to me!oh!my potato!!I ran in the kitchen,took off the fire,put away the cover.oh!poor poor pot,poor potato! it was burnt!!the burning smell was so strong,so careless I was!What a shame!
   fortunately,the pot is fine.It really was more scared than hurt!
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My shoes kills me.

Posted by Icarus on April 17, 2011

  Well...the weather gets warmer and warmer,so I can't wait to take off my sneaker,and run to the near shoes shop,pick a suitable shoes.yeah!I was interested in a pair of shoes,the design is so simple and cute,I love it!But the heel is a litter higher.you know what?I have never worn the high heel before,it is a little tough for me.you have never known the female,each woman loves beauty.I am no exception,so I got it with satisfaction!And then I showed to my boyfriend proudly,"Look,it's beautiful ,isn't it?haha!"he was so surprised and said yes!but he did't  believe I can handle it.

    After a while,he asked me to buy lunch,and I wore my beautiful shoes to buy,it's not a long distance,okay...take a deep breath!and keep balance!move steps... wow!Christ Jesus!what's wrong with it? my poor feet....finally,I went there and came back!oh oh oh!I put it away quickly,and announced to my boyfriend,"it kills me,I don't wanna wear it anymore!"he laughed loudly.oh...
     I just know a word,each woman loves high heel who is an angel with no wing in her previous life.wow!pay a heavy price!but I really want to be....

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