A lot of people tell me that I'm so quiet. A lot of people also perceive me as lonely, negative or not so quite interesting to talk to.
It is also what I describe myself, silent. Silence is my friend. I like being quiet because that's the time I hear the true sounds of everything around me. The trees are boosting their magnificence. The flowers beside the road are conveying their ethereal beauty. The cool wind that gently hugging me.
Silence is my friend because to some degree it helps me understand the meaning of one's voice or one's intention. Most of the time I have my opinions but I just keep it to myself. It is either because I don't have a big voice and no one is interested anyway or because things are just complicated and I have to dissect it to the core. By the time I have my own side, the chance is already gone.
But no, not all perceptions regarding me is true (at least in my opinion). Yes, I dread small talks but I love discussions about life, our purpose and destinations. I love deeper attention about frugality, minimalism, materialism, early retirement and gardening. I like asking what if we do not have religions? What if they don't exist? What if we embark on spirituality instead. What if we treat one another as equal on the basis of humanity and not the races nor the country we come from? What if we start the solutions within ourselves? What if we don't blame and complain to one another but instead we show compassion. To understand that everyone of us is part of the whole; therefore, you're not a separate entity from me and I'm not separate from you. We are One.
I'm not boring at all (again in my own view of myself). I could talk many things. It's just that there are no ears ready to listen. I want to talk, but I prefer more to be still. I'm not unhappy when I'm still like other people think of me. I'm just savoring the gift of tranquility, the inner peace, the void or the space within me. I'm not afraid of silence. Silence is a pure energy that if we are able to harness it we can have a control of our life.
A lot of people are not comfortable with silence. Why? Maybe because they are afraid to mind their own mind. They think they are their mind. They identify themselves of what their mind say about them. They are wrong. We are beyond our mind. We are beyond our jobs, our clothes, our wealth, our roles to society. As Eckhart Tolle says, "We are not our mind. We are the 'Observer' of our mind". In that, we have the control over our mind and so our life. Don't allow it to control us.
All in all, I'm not disheartened when others say I'm so silent because someone made me realize something. Silence is not bad at all. This person said that with my presence there is this calmness that I bring that makes his day right. And that's all I want and need to know.