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                  The only notion that terrified me a lot as a child and a teen was being lonely.Deep inside I was that type of talkative and outgoing girl, full of life and energy.However, I wasnt accepted among my classmate . No one liked me or even approched me. I was as thin as a rake with lots of curls. I didnt know how to do my hair or how to wear clothes. I had no elder sister to help me because I was the eldest,and it was a dilemma for me. And I have attributed all my horrible emotions of loneliness to the way I looked.

        I couldnt shake anyone hand.  I felt pain and shame at the same time. Then, I decided to keep myself away from people and a long journey of enduring loneliness started. It was full of books, drawing,photos,imaginationand the bad habit of talking to myself like a mad person. In my final years of high school, girls started bullying me. As if they suddenly notice someone was there.

         But I was granted the power to continue because a candle was buring somewhere in my darkness.And it was my dream to enroll myself in a college in my city.At the doorstep of my college years, things dramatically changed and began to favor me. I have had it at last. Real friends and all those pleasurable emotions of friendship. I was accepted the way I was. It was me among them without boundaries or limits. This world was bigger than my school. My friends came from different Arab tribes in my region. This was the force for us to mingle together. No one knows anyone around. Unlike school where most friends groups were relatives.

                Finally , I cant blame my teenage classmate for not being my friend. Its their limited scope of thinking . I might do as they have done. No teen has the courage or the mentality to start a conversation with a girl like me. However , a handshake, a word , a hello or just a smile might mean a lot to a broken heart like me. we are created to be together and we are all in need to each other.

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  • That's a great piece of writing. Lonelisness brings out talent, powers creativity. 

    Bye the way, a simple hi or hello lessens fricitions in personalities too. 

  •      My dear friend, it seems that your mind is still pregnant with a lot of uncomfortable memories. I can ensure you that, forgiveness is the answer to almost every problem. It releases us from the past. Then, our souls will be free. Yes, some memories are unforgettable, no matter what. But with forgiveness they will be controlled by us, not otherwise. I can tell. 

          On the top of that, don’t forget joy and happiness are always within you. So, make a bridge between yourself and them. And built your life around them. When you do that, you will be open to a new marvelous world with a novel sweet remembrances.

         Finally, always keep, loudly, saying: chees. God bless you my dear.  

  • Hi Rosemary,

    Reading the first paragraph, I should click like because I like the way you write the story. It's full of emotions. It's how you really fell, so natural.

    Well, you know, there may be many girls like you have the same childhood experience. It's like a cycle. We may face dark life in the past then a bright life in the future, or otherwise. As I observed, no one has always the bright life in their whole life.

    But, the point is, we can learn something from every step in our life. If not, we are lossy.

    Thanks for sharing this. 

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  • Hello Rosemary :)

    Your story is very interesting. 

    • Thanks Persona 🌸

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