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"Is everything going okay with you there?"

I couldn't believe myself asking such a question... I just wanted to hear that you were suffering a lot.

I could not believe myself pretending like an angel in front of you and hold my devil side so good inside of me.

smiling like an innocent kid while crying so loud in silent.

I am jealous......

Jealous of everything around you. Jealous of the way that you're happy without me.

I am suffering because of it, hurting so bad, and just wanted to curse my bad luck.

"Is everything going okay with you there?"

Fake smile, trying hard to hold the tears from my hurting eyes.......I couldn't believe that I could be an amazing actor like this.

I just wanted to hear that you wanted to hold me back and stayed with me and choose me instead of other.

I am jealous......

Jealous of the smile that comes from the lips to other direction.

Jealous of the love that you have shared to another heart.

Jealousy brought me to the deepest mourning ever, throw me to the longest sorrow.

Even me, myself never ever imagined this before.

"Is everything going okay with you there?"

I knew this question hurts me a lot, but still,  I asked.

I just wanted to know how strong my heart to accept the failure. 

to tested how invulnerable my feeling towards you.

" I am far from okay, but I will survive," He said

I won but lose...

defeated by my own heart, deceived by my own feeling

sank deeper and deeper, even worse...

"Is everything going ok with me here?".....

I am looking for the answer deep down in me...

 

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  • Only just one word with, wonderful....What nice explanation,what nice telling... I admired...

    • Thanks, Adriano, jealous is also wonderful feeling when u put it in the right time and the right measurement

  • Marshaa...

    thank you...hope you have time to read my other blog

  • Dear Roman,

    good for you,...thank you for reading and commenting...

  • Awesome writing. ..thanks.
  • Well. Yes, good blog. Now i know, what i shouldn't do in future :) "Jealous of the way that you're happy without me."

  • Dear Chitra it's always great to hear from you...

    Thank you for reading and give your comment, I really appreciate

  • Dear Kal....
    I do believe we need to express our feeling honesty, because pretending we are good everytime only make us in deep pain.
    We are just human being with bad and good side in us.
    And thank goodness we have brain and sense which are control the way we expressed our feelings.
    Thank you for reading and putting your comment Kal.
  • Dear sweet girl Ratu,
    I think nobody arahant. As humans, everyone feels with jealous. But nobody appearing it. Always they are trying to show, as good persons without jealous.
    Appreciate for sharing your frank thought dear!

  • Estaaaaaa
    Yeah I bet you've had this kind of feeling long time ago, when the love still egoist, young it always followed by jealousy and when love grows it's evaporated......
    I am good Esta, no complaint at all, I hope you are good there. Missed you my dear friend.
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