I'm pretty sure that anyone of you will fight for this prestigious scholarship, well so am I. I had invested so much time, money and energy to win this scholarship. I did all the requirement they asked, submitted online, and wrote the essays there. and Alhamdulillah (Thank God) I passed for the first selection session. I could say that this was my big chance to continue to the next level. They informed me that in this year (2017) there were 5327 applications.They just took 600 applications that met the criteria. From those 600 applications, 92 are PhD candidates and 508 are Master candidates, and I was one of the 92. They also informed that from the 92 candidates they need only 45 students. 

Before the selected candidates were interviewed, they had to attended IELTS test in Jakarta or Surabaya for Free. though, not too bad I got band 6.5 for average. Thank God once again. You know, this is the first time for me conducted IELTS test. Then on August 30, 2017 i flew for Jakarta for the interviewed session. well, actually the schedule was on August 31, 2017. I flew a day earlier in order to take rest and prepared physically and mentally to face the examiners. You know, All the tickets (round trip) and accommodation paid by Australian Award Scholarship (AAS) foundation by reimbursement system.

Taraaa...this is it THE BIG DAY. My name was called. I entered a room with two examiners from Indonesia and two from Australia. Well, for PhD candidate, you had to present your research proposal for about 10 minutes followed by discussion. the examiners asked about the detail of the research and some about your jobs. It took 30 minutes. so the total is about 40 minutes. During the interviewed session, I felt very confidence and I guess i could answer all the questions perfectly. But Who knows....

I had to wait for about 3 weeks for the final announcement. I found that I didn't win the scholarship. I got the email, and they gave me a feedback for my research proposal. they encouraged me to improved it and tried to apply again next year.

I felt gloomy, sad, depress, disappointed for a week. It's difficult to accept a reality. I just felt that i had already arranged all the pieces of puzzle but then it's like somebody scattered them on the floor. I could not imagine how i had to start again from the start. But then, I realize,presumably, this is my fate. 

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  • Hi Shanty

    First, I am so sorry to hear your true story. I wish you best in the future to achieve your goals particularly in this matter. 

    Second, believe me there is a good intension of God that has been prepared for you, it could be the better opportunities in near future that might be out of your expectation. The thing that you need to do is preparing yourself to pick up the good opportunities in front of you. I absolutely agree with Evangelina said. 

    Wish you have a good weekend then.

  • Don't be disappointed  u will get the scholarship  someday  . Keep on trying  and don't stop 

  • @Evangelina. 

    Hi...thnx for the very nice saying. Thank you so much

  • shanty,

    These things happens. In the present moment it doesn't feels fair or good and one have to digest those feelings to look forward and upon other opportunities.

    But looking at the bright side, one can accomplish much in a one years of preparations.

    Never feel discouraged, even it can be difficult not to.

    Good luck :)
  • So, it is you "Tara"?
  • Hi...roman...thnx for ur comment. I really appreciate it.
  • Hi, shanty duwila. Is it your story? Poor Tara... I am sorry to read this. I don't want to say about that our life is difficult, everybody knows that . I just want to wish Tara better luck! Once i had got almost the same failure:)

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