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One day I wrote English chat in google and just kept clicking what came next. Somehow my account was made and I was on EC. There was a small window on the lower right corner that was scrolling. To ma great amusement, they were people talking in real time.
The idea of different people sitting in all different parts of the world and chatting in real time really amused me. For days I kept thinking that I was some fake software that would just repeat random sentences. I thought to experiment. After a couple of days, I figured out that they were real people.
Soon I found myself talking and dedicating all ma attention to only one lady on the EC chat room. She became ma centre of attention. I would only come online if she was there.
"A rose can be ma garden, a friend ma whole universe"... Someone has said this just for me :)
She became famous, even became a mod and then she left because she was done improving her English. I had dreamt some real dreams with her. I dreamt to be on the same coffee table with her some day. For some time, I thought that she was for real. But sighs, all what was real for me was virtual for her. She never took ma dreams seriously. I was broken and I left.
Once I remember I was telling to someone here that I was attahed to someone here, she started to laugh at me. She said the word attach reminds me of an email attachment or a file, how become you become attached... I was never in love with her but for a moment I made the mistake to think that I had her somewhere in ma life.... She was never there...
You know why I kept changing ma names here, I never wanted someone to get attached to me here, I never wanted to hurt someone giving her the belief that I was real. And now the silence here assures me that I succeeded in not getting people attached to me.... Though somewhere along this journey I failed... Yes, I am the fool who thought EC was for real.... I was the fool who thought that we were connected and had each other. Now when years after years, there is not even a single activity on ma account, I try to convince myself that this place is not for real. It has always been a programmed software who would say hello in return to ma hello. I shall have to live by the rest of ma life with the believing they were all robots programmed to improve the Enlgish of others... Heavens, Nafis, Anele, Yasmin, Scarlett, Ha,..... all robots.....
I started this blog and went at 1 o'clock midnight and it's is 1:20am now here and I am in no mood to go back correct the mistakes... :)
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